WORRIED

My best friend has been posting posts that have really worried me. I tell her all the time if she has a problem to call me. I will always listen to what she has to say the yesterday she was really upset and now I'm really worried because she hasn't posted or got on windows live messenger. She is a big part of what holds me together. As I type this I'm in tears because i don't know if she is ok. I stayed home today because i knew that i would not have been able to concentrate at all on my school work so I said i was sick witch was kinda true. I was sick I felt like throwing up because I don't know if she is ok. If she left this world I would follow right after her. I would not be able to go on knowing I could no longer talk to her or see her. I care about her so much. But It's hard to say it to her face. I sometimes feel like an idiot when I'm around her i get so embarrassed of some of the things i say.Sometimes I hate myself for caring about my friends so much because it eats from the inside out when a friend is in trouble or really sad.Sam I hope I will see at school tomorrow.Well I'm going to try to sleep but most likely won't have much luck well bye bye.